My romantic view of relationships has turned remarkably cynical. So, if I were to go an extremely extended period of time without entering into another one, I would be one happy girl. But seriously, what is the point. Nothing lasts forever. That's not pessimistic, that's realistic..so get it straight. Also, for the record, I am not NOT not heartbroken over my recent break up. I am upset, but if you were to ask me about two months after we first started dating if I genuinely thought it would last, my answer would have either been "I hope so" or "probably not". I knew in the beginning that there was already too much going against us. I just lied to myself. I loved her, don't get me wrong, but I tricked myself into thinking there was something I could do to make everything work. I suppose that may be the case with many relationships, and that is exactly the reason why I refuse to jump into another one. Perhaps one day I'll decide it's time to settle down -actually I can almost guarantee that will happen- but that will be after I've started my career and I'm living on my own, doing the things I want to do FOR MYSELF.
Dating is okay, though...maybe...
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