I've got my old self back! My "not so paranoid, nonmaterialistic, unaffected by others thoughts, strong, and sturdy in my identity" self! (Though, as for the paranoid part, I have always been a bit of a worrier. At least now I won't wake up in the middle of the night thinking someone is coming to murder me in my sleep)
And it seriously happened just like that. I woke up Tuesday morning with the exact same mindset I had when I first met Kari (though I'm sure her involvement wasn't the sole cause for my change)
Monday night I had my first open, honest, nonawkward conversation with my Mom about being gay. And I think THAT is the main reason that I suddenly feel alive again. Holding in feelings from people so long can seriously take a major toll on your psychological build.
Expect to hear more on the gay convo soon. Back to studying :)
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