Hangover Hell

I went to a house party last night. I hadn't been to a house party in so long and had been craving to go to one. However, while it was great to see old friends, it just didn't seem to live up to what I remember parties being like. First of all, I was wasted. Wasted to the point where I remember having fun, but I don't remember why it was fun. I don't remember what I said, or did, and that thought terrifies me. I do NOT want to be that sloppy drunk girl falling all over herself, and how do I know if I was or not? I guess I used to like getting that drunk. I definitely don't find that exciting anymore, though. Also, when I got home from work today, I saw that there was a dirty plate sitting on my nightstand. Apparently, I had eaten. Don't remember doing that. But I do remember throwing it up this morning. Which brings me to... Second of all, the hangover. Is it really worth it?? I had to stop in the middle of different projects at work all day to go to the bathroom and force myself to vomit because I felt dizzy. I was sweaty, my head hurt, everything was spinning. It was terrible. My manager kept asking me if I was okay, and if I was going to make it, which brings me too... Lastly, I was late to work. I HATE being late to work. I HATE being that employee. I pride myself on being very hardworking. I enjoy work, I enjoy keeping busy, I enjoy completing tasks. But I also know how it feels to be the manager of a shift, and to have an employee come in late. And I know what I assume about that employee when the shift is an early shift, and that is that they went out drinking. My manager knew that's why I was late. And that, to me, is inexcusable. I should have been written up. I think I feel worse that SHE didn't write me up than I would if she actually did.

Anyway, what a waste of a day. I got off work, came home, slept, woke up, ate, and now am getting ready to go to bed. And all I was really needing to do today was finish my paper. Well, I guess I'll have to do that tomorrow, huh?

P.S. On a completely different note, tomorrow starts my calorie counting. Shelby (my amazing sister, who I should definitely blog about sometime) showed me this amazing website that calculates what is a called a "zigzag" calorie count. You just put in your information and it brings up a "zigzag" calorie count for extreme fat loss, regular fat loss, and maintaining weight. I obviously will be choosing the extreme weight loss, she's doing the maintain. It's called "zigzag" because it computes a different amount of calories for everyday of the week, and it's supposed to trick your body into losing more weight and also helps prevent plateaus. Plus it helps the person feel like they have some variety, instead of following a set number everyday. Anyway, we'll see how it goes :) I'm going to be blogging about my progress, hoping that will help me stick with it